Hello and welcome to my blog. I hope you find it enjoyable and that we can enlighten one another. I look forward to making some new friends and engaging in some interesting dialogue.
Why blog and why do it under my CD pseudonym?
Why blog and why do it under my CD pseudonym?
I view this blog as my own therapy. I'm often full of worry and fear about the future, and this is my chance to write about it. Blogging as Amanda gives me a chance to explore all aspects of myself, including (but not limited to) CDing, and it allows for some comments and feedback from others, with the ability to do it anonymously. So, I guess my question is, why not blog as Amanda? She's a (important) part of me, and this gives me a chance to tell all of my story and explore all of my thoughts.
I grew up in a small southern town. Like many (all but a handful) of them, it's socially conservative and very religious - certainly not the type of place where being CD would be very accepted, though it has become more tolerant over the years as it is a retirement area that has boomed in population.
But being a CD is only a part of who I am: I don't think I would have been running around in dresses and playing with dolls regardless. I was actually a pretty regular boy otherwise - into sports, action figures, and the like. Sexually, I liked girls - still do (of all types). Beyond CDing, my difference from other boys in my town was that I was very smart, very ambitious, a bit more introverted and risk averse, and lacked self-esteem and self-confidence. Those things still define me today - except I'm working with people smarter than me now, which is more challenging and entertaining, but very often weighs on my self confidence too.
Up next: my CD story
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